Servant

"The disciple's life is a valuable property of his Guru Maharaja's, not merely his own. He's not to be concerned with only his interest, but he should live in the interest of his Gurudeva"

" A servant has no independent position - his position is always on command of the master. He's always situated withing infinite possibility... But he is humble to his Master, not to the goondas (rogues). His humility must be chiefly towards whom? Towards my Master. I am humble towards the Lord's own, the Vaisnava. I am humble there."

-- Srila BR Sridhar Dev-Goswami Maharaja. Sermons of the Guardian of Devotion volume 2.

I have been reading Sermons 2 and writing down instructions that I feel I need to meditate on. I have so many needs and wants, but I need to treat my body as His property and act accordingly. This is really hard for me because basically I am a selfish person :-) Anywho, sadhu sanga and kirtan will eventually, in a couple of million lifetimes, clear the cob-webs.

“You are not created for this land where you are always suffering from uncertainty and apprehension. Apprehension and uncertainty are always troubling you; you must cross beyond tem, go up, and you will find sivam – no apprehension, but the positive life. If you really like to have it, you will have to enter into the area of Goloka, the land of beauty and love. No consideration of calculation, no necessity of calculation or anything else. There, no fraud or deception can ever be dreamed of, so calculation and reasoning have no place at all. Automatically, all is good, all is fulfillment. This is the general conception”